Apparently, I'm an ass.

I usually tell my friends and parents that I'm fine on my own. I don't need anyone to complete me and all that shit. I do mean it when I say that. But it doesn't necessarily mean I feel that way all the time and that I don't want anyone beside me; in short, on my emo moments, I do feel lonely minsan.

I like being on my own because I decide how I want to spend my time/money/thoughts on without anyone complaining about it or at least without having to care if someone else likes what I'm doing. I love being on my own and having myself for my company. You ask why? William Wallace said it best, "Freeeeedooooooom!!!!!"

While I was walking, on my way to commute back home, I suddenly realized... Hmmm... I'd like for someone to like me. It's not a specific someone, just a hypothetical one. And I'd like for it to happen not because I want to be liked; although, it probably is a part of it and I'm just repressing it. I'd like for someone to like me mainly because I would really enjoy seeing him squirm once he realizes he likes me and I could tell him, "Sorry, I really don't have time for this" and I would mean what I'm saying.

I realize that it's a shitty thing to do but I don't mean it in a malicious-hahaha-i-like-seeing-you-in-pain-kind-of-way. I just really do think it would be really funny to tell someone that you don't have time and you don't want to have the time, even if you did, for what most people want. And besides being funny, I think it would also feel like some kind of power over something. I don't need it and somebody else does and I can throw it away easily because I have this power of not needing whatever that is.

And that's when it came to me... All this time, I thought I was this loving caring, understanding, although a bit cold, person. Akala ko. At sabi nga nung kanta, mali pala ang akala ko.

Apparently, I'm an ass.

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View from my bed...

Sorry to disappoint, hindi siya view ng pacific ocean or a vineyard just outside my window...
Rice cooker, pitaka, personal and support phones, at siyempre ang pinakamahalaga... Baygon!

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Bored, stressed, at gusto ko magwala!

Partially kasalanan ko kung bakit ang gulo ng time sheet ko for work last sep, pero for the other part na di ko kasalanan gusto ko magwala! Eh kaso wala akong k magwala kasi nga may part na di sinasadyang nagulo ko talaga. Hay nakuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!

Di ako makafocus sa trabaho dahil sa lecheng timesheet na to. i have never been one to multi task. Magsisimula lang ako sa isang trabaho kung wala na yung bola sa akin dun sa ibang task. Pero for this one, nakakagigil! Ang labo labo kasi! Pwede sa simula pa lang linawin na?!?!?!

Walang kwenta tong rant na to! Kahit ako ayaw ko sana isulat eh kaso kelangan ko ilabas kasi nakakagigil!!!!! Yung kausap ko pa medyo tanga! Hay nakuuuuuuu!!! Di alam kung ano tama! Kailangan ako pa magpoint out kung ano dapat! Eh siya tong hr! Paker!

Hayblaaaaaddddd!!!!

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Katakots!!!!

Mwahahha! May bago akong project! Simple lang yung concept niya, may isusunset na file so kelangan lang palitan ng mas simpleng file.

Kaso tatlo kaming developer. Ako lang less than 10 yrs yung experience. Yung isa sure ako more than 30 yrs ng nagproprogram at alam ko pang-all around siya kasi magaling talaga siya... Yung isa... magaling din, more than 20  yrs I think yung experience... unless niloloko lang ako ng buhok niya... kasi puro puti na...

KInakabahan ako!!!! Hahahaha! Baka malaman nila extent ng kajongahan ko! hahaahahha! Siyempre I welcome the opportunity to learn! But my pride!!!! Homaygeds! ahahahahaah! Di pa kami nagsisimula, warak na agad! HAhahah! Wala! Naiintimidate lang ako ng bongga! Bakit ba! hahahah!